Long before I met Oracle or knew who she was, I was very impressed with her posts.
She had a unique viewpoint and an original way of expressing herself. I remember
having the thought that she would be someone I would really enjoy auditing.
Then in December I had the pleasure of auditing her on her L11. There were big wins
and it was lots of fun for both of us.
With the Ls, there are wins that you have in
session, and then there are wins that result from the unraveling that occurs when
you pull the plug on a major piece of case. You can get a cascading series of wins
afterwards and that is what happened here as well.
These kind of wins signal some very deep shifts.
Here is her success story:
WOW, This has to be the best kept treasure in the universe.
I had so much validation of who I am as an immortal.
I also had a HUGE mystery blown away from my space about the universe and others in it.
My deepest gratitude to Trey for being Trey!
Then a few weeks later:
I’ve found a new balance with force.
The minute I finished L11 I looked out to understand others better. I have always been fascinated with other people and strive to understand them, by understanding me. If I realize something is true for me, I look out and if it explains some truth for everyone else, my reach then expands across the universe. I can KNOW better on a planet wide scale. Whew! Well L11 caused me to bleed out all over the place, like a bucket of paint being poured over the Earth.
The first thing I noticed about social intercourse as a child is that people were unpredictable. That left me with some trust issues. Once I got into Scientology and found out about the reactive mind, my trust issues expanded. How to trust anyone with a reactive mind? Not possible. As a result I became extremely forgiving and reasonable. Not that that was a problem for me. I saw everyone else as handicapped! Except , looking back I went into a sort of apathy about control of others. They were not stable or intelligent or sane enough to run control on with reason alone. The best I could do was herd them into some circumstance beyond their command , to some event or circumstance that would get them to key out accidently. Usually through some form of entertainment. So, I became an entertainer. It was the only method of control, curiosity.
Upon finishing L11, I instantly reviewed my track where others had harmed me and I understood why. This was where I was able to let go of a real burden. Before this, for many years, I thought I had caused it all. Bought it all upon myself. At this point though, I saw it as an equal effort , and that others had some input too on me and I almost fell to my knees in relief.
I guess on some level I relieved myself from being a “total cause” case. I came into communication with the rest of society in a harmony I had not felt before. A regard for others and their ability to cause, came within my perceptions. And I found I was granting beingness to them. Wow, my ARC came up. But instead of becoming more “reasonable”, with this granting of power to others, I felt less inclined to be pushed around socially.
I can’t really analyze this in a success story, but my balance of power shifted.
I had more mercy, yet, less reasonableness, more regard, more tolerance, yet less discount points for others. But the final equation for me was, I am here on the same terms as everyone else. I do not have to make excuses for them and take the losses on myself like some holy martyr.
I trust myself now to be here on these terms. Life is really really different!
Suddenly I know I have the ability to go free.
This is a real life repair on a whole new level.